I haven’t written in awhile. It’s not that things haven’t been going on, because they have. My oldest child is getting married in a few short weeks. Everyone keeps asking how the reception plans are going and if they can help. Since the event is happening in Utah, my mom and my sister are handling most of it so I […]
You know how Hermione in the Harry Potter books always has her hand up in class? I used to be a little like that when I was younger. I’m pretty sure my high school English teacher found me very irritating because I ALWAYS had something to say. It took a lot of growing up before I realized that I didn’t […]
I’ve become a stereotype – the single mother of a troubled kid. It’s an uncomfortable role. Every time I’m in a situation where strangers are interacting with me in this capacity I want to say, “wait! You don’t understand… This kid was troubled back when I was married, not widowed, and there were two functioning parents and positive role models.” […]
This past week I took my son to a residential treatment center and left him for what will probably be a least a year away from home. It was a difficult decision to make on so many levels. For eleven years we have worked diligently to get him the professional help that he has needed and to encourage him in […]
Has it been too long since Tom died for me to write a post about how I’m missing him? After all it’s been over a year and I should be moving on, right? It’s not that I cry myself to sleep (because I don’t) or that I don’t find my life (overall) pretty happy (because I do). It’s just there […]
Last weekend I drove out to Utah for the wedding of my niece. It doesn’t really matter that I’ve made this trip so many times in the past, or that even in the past year I’ve made it a half a dozen times. I get in the car and there is all that uninterrupted time to think… and what I […]
When I was younger and had what I considered to be a trial, I would often find myself thinking, “I guess the Lord is trying to teach me a lesson.” Then, when I had another challenge that seemed to be working on the same issue, I’d think, “I thought I learned how to do that – I guess not, since […]
To wear a ring or not … I never supposed it would be such a topic of discussion and thought. Before Tom died I was firmly on the side of remarriage. I think life can be long and lonely and if you have the chance to remarry, that’s a good thing. But I didn’t count on the feelings that come […]
I’m not generally big on commemorating events. We celebrate major holidays and birthdays and our wedding day, but everything else … I guess I just haven’t ever been really big on that. I haven’t counted the days since Tom died. I don’t find myself thinking ” it’s been six months”. But today I can’t help remembering that a year ago […]
I was recently invited to be a seminary teacher this coming school year (seminary is a 5 day a week, early morning class for the youth of my church where they study a book of scripture over the course of the year.) I like to imagine that conversation… “Who do we know who can do this job? Let’s see – […]